A Season of Rest
You may have noticed it’s been quiet around here lately.
It’s going to continue to be that way, at least a little while longer, and I’m going to try to explain why.
The hardest question I faced over the last few weeks of interviews, book promotions and press was, “What’s next for you?” I’d be talking a million miles a minute, gesturing and smiling, words and answers flowing freely to question after question, and then the “what’s next” question would inevitably come.
Quickly, I’d get very quiet.
Because I don’t have a specific plan of my own for this space, future books or my “career” as a blogger and truth be told, it feels glorious. And a little scary.
I do know a few things:
I’m exhausted of thinking about myself. I don’t know where I got the idea that I was important enough that I needed to write about myself daily. I don’t need to. I don’t want to. It’s distractingly noisy for both you and I.
Our family is changing. I couldn’t love these three people more. I have grown to treasure them in ways I regretfully didn’t before, and so things have looked and sounded different around here than they did three years ago. You’ve noticed–we’ve changed. And we’re still changing and growing. I want to soak up every second of this stage of our family before we move onto the next beautiful, miraculous stage that is coming. And I need to figure out how much, if any, of this new stage I want to share publicly.
I will keep writing. It’s been my constant love, all along, as far back as I can remember. Even while I’m quiet here, I’ll still be writing at She Reads Truth, for as long as they’ll let me. And though I don’t know when or what it will look like exactly, in time, I’ll write here again as well. Food is not quite the passion it’s been for me, and so I need to get that passion back or make a change, but I’ll always be writing.
I will keep looking for and seizing opportunities to serve. I believe that during these in-between times of life, we can be a waiter or a server. I choose the latter. In addition to serving in the usual ways we do in our lives, Chris and I will be going to Guatemala this August with Food for the Hungry. I’ll be sharing our trip and the work this great organization does through writing about it here. I hope you’ll want to be a part of it too. This is the stuff, people.
Last, and most importantly, I need to rest in Him. I’ve got to make some room for the Lord to continue do His thing with me and our family. I’ve had so many plans, goals, things on my plate, that I’ve left little room for the Lord to work.
But I can tell you, He already has.
I can’t help but think that maybe all that has happened here was meant for me to live through and to change me. I am so thankful for all of you, for this space and for these experiences, good and bad, because through it all, He’s been moving me to be a better me. I am so, so grateful.
And yet, I know I need to step back, at least for a little bit longer. I’ve got to shift my focus.
I can’t thank you enough for all you’ve shared with us so far. I hope to see you again soon.